Arrrghhh.

Since I talked to Monica I have felt so out of sorts.

I think it's partially the sugar I've eaten. I haven't eaten a lot, but enough that it's thrown me out of whack.

I think more so, I'm scared of success.

Monica and I talked about how I've gained a few pounds. It's ok, it's winter, people eat more over the holidays, etc etc. Going to the gym (like I have been) and eating mindfully (like I haven't been) I should tone up and lose those few pounds.

So I feel like all I've done all week is eat.

As I write that, I know it's not true. It's more been the past couple of days than all week. It's not all or nothing. I know that.

I've felt mostly out of sorts just today and yesterday. I know what I can do. STOP eating when I'm not hungry. Drink water. Eat greens. Eat grains. Don't listen to the sugar monster and it'll go away.

It's just that I want to listen to it. I want to go eat a few more cookies. Peanut butter cups. Ice cream.

Arrrrrgggghhhhhh.

I need to calm down. Chill. I always tell my kids to chill.

I'm watching Queen Sized (the lifetime movie.) It's cute.