Baby Steps

OH MY GOSH I WON! I'm so excited to try the Honest Foods Bars! Thanks Angela!

I think it's really hard to try to eat consciously when I'm sick. It's certainly hard to exercise.

I finally went to the doctor today and got nose spray and antibiotics (which I'm not taking yet.) She said to wait a few days to see if I feel better first. That sounds good to me because I'd really rather not take medicine I don't need. Usually taking echinacea/astragalus when I first start to feel sick works but I guess this time I was just too run down and tired. You know, now would probably be the best time for me to be eating heathfully and consciously.

It's just so hard. I still struggle constantly. I wish I was at the point like Kath or Angela or many of the other wonderful bloggers that I read that have such a great relationship with food. I can't seem to get past my weight.

I get so caught up in right or wrong, black or white. I eat healthily, I "fail" by eating something that I think I shouldn't, and I give up for a day or week or two. Then I've gained a few pounds and I'm upset with that, not to mention that I feel crappy with all the sugar and processed food I've eaten. I'm so sick and tired of this cycle!

I think I should start posting more pictures. Maybe even food like all the new blogs I've been reading.

I at least need to put one foot forward in the right direction. Baby steps, right?